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“As an occultist and analytic idealist, I often wonder if I am mildly insane — or perhaps one of the only sane, reasonable people.”

Well, if you are mildly insane, you’re not alone. Because I found everything you’ve written here eminently reasonable. Wise, even.

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I can sit for hours at a time while chanting mantras. That's probably my first favorite overwhelm. then after that....it's definitely infomaniac scholar overwhelm

super curious about your opinions on why Jesus's persona aligns with the progression of the Sun through the cardinal points matching the seasons of the year.

that cannot be a coincidence. sort of semi-proves that his persona is a relic of paganism where people used his identity as a metaphor before it was cast into a "persona." I'm not 100% on this since I haven't delved deep enough into all of the theories and proper timelines. Currently reading arguments for and against his physical existence as a human versus him being a gnostic energy that was channeled through a type of tantra.

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The first time I heard of theurgy was when I was dreaming. I was sitting in a log cabin dressed in all white with these other women dressed in white as we meditated in lotus. A man with a long white beard was in a throne shooting lightening into our bodies. Then the man told me that I was a bride of christ and to study theurgy. After waking, I googled his appearance and found out who he was from the details I remembered in the dream. It was Saint Seraphim of Sarov, patron saint of nuclear weapons. Then I looked up theurgy and as I researched him, and I realized I had dreamt of him on his canonization day (the opening of his relics). Then later that day after the dream, my neighbors told me that they owned several of his icons. They also informed me that we lived right down the street from the Dallas Saint Seraphim of Sarov church where his relics are stored.

I had never heard of him before. This is my life.

To make this story even crazier!!! Several years ago before Russia went off the deep end....I was actually approached to be interviewed about GMOs and American activism by the Russian Orthodox Church....wtf????????? lol. still trying to wrap my head around this.

Also I have a seraphim tattoo. I can't remember if I got my seraphim tattoo before or after the Saint Seraphim dream. But I have a traditional six-winged archangel tattooed on my arm. After the Russian Orthodox Church reached out to me, I realized that my seraphim tattoo is the same as the seraphim as the one on the Koukoulion of the Patriarch Kirill. Trust me. I did not do that on purpose. Because I got the tattoo to represent the sphere of Geburah on the Tree of Life. Had no idea of the Kirill connection.

It's just all a string of very strangely timed coincidences and I'm lowkey like wtf is going on. Ever since then I have a phantom anxiety that I'm being watched by the Russian church LMAO. Don't laugh.

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